Finally!!

I stood there dripping wet in my bath towel as Miss Kaela took little Lyla away for her morning nap.  She was crying for her Mommy, which made me smile.  I actually uttered the words, “She finally LOVES me!”


And yes, I realize that is ridiculous on so many levels.  I don’t know what to say except that I said exactly what was in my heart at that moment.  I suppose, even if it comes in the form of hearing your sweet baby cry, it always feels good to be loved. 

We spend a lot of time as parents loving our children.  Someone so very dear to me has said to me MANY times, “Love is not a noun, it’s a VERB!!”  Never have I known it to be so true until I had my children.  Whooooa!!!!!  Could there be any truer statement?  Think about it….

I am missing them today.  Much more than usual, and if I’m honest (and I always will be!), there were times when I did NOT miss my kids while I was at work.  Go ahead.  Think I’m terrible.  You’ll get over yourself.  But it is true.  So my point is:  I am doing better with my balance….much better.

I am more than sure there will be many more days when I don’t miss my kids while I’m at work.  That’s just who I am.  And there was a time when I would have apologized for that.  That time has passed.  It doesn’t make me a bad Mom.  It doesn’t make me a bad person.  I just like my space.  I like time for me.  And finally, I don’t think this makes me the absolute worst Mom in the history of mankind.  Finally, I don’t feel guilty about that.

But for today, for this moment (which could quite possibly change the second I hit the door), I want to get home to my babies.  And when I get there, I really, really, REALLY want to push the pause button.